CPA (Computer Placement Anxiety)
Oct. 8th, 2014 08:21 amDoesn't anyone else suffer from CPA? I'll shut mine and put it on the coffee table, then I'm like, no, someone will see it from the window and break in. So I put it under a pillow on my bed, no, it will overheat and burn down my house. So I put it on the floor, no, a water pipe will burst and flood the house ruining my darling. It can't go anywhere near the fish tank, or in the kitchen, or on a soft surface, or an exposed surface. It usually ends up under some throw pillows on the couch*, then I get home and promptly sit on it.
I feel like a squirrel with a single, precious, nut.
*But thanks to this post it can't hide there anymore.
I feel like a squirrel with a single, precious, nut.
*But thanks to this post it can't hide there anymore.
Talking to the pink rabbit
Sep. 3rd, 2014 09:16 amI've discovered the secret to happiness. Play your life like a Sims game.
I'm incredibly dumb about my emotions. I can go the whole day thinking I must have stomach ulcers before it occurs to me I'm worried about something. Recently (see previous post) I've been feeling trapped and overwhelmed. Then my mom pointed out that I haven't traveled for about two years. Before kids I was on a plane about four times a year. Then the saint that is my mother offered to babysit this weekend so I can drive up to Tulsa and lounge around my friends' houses.
I'm looking forward to it and everything has lightened up.
She also reminded me that respite care* exists just for this reason. So maybe in February I'll take a week and fly to a coast for a while.
So yay!
*The state is very particular about who the kids can stay with overnight. The person has to have various background checks and home visits etc. My mom (bless her) has done all of this. Otherwise, the state provides respite foster care where the kids are placed in another foster home while you have wild hedonistic travels before returning. Or go to funerals, whatever.
I'm incredibly dumb about my emotions. I can go the whole day thinking I must have stomach ulcers before it occurs to me I'm worried about something. Recently (see previous post) I've been feeling trapped and overwhelmed. Then my mom pointed out that I haven't traveled for about two years. Before kids I was on a plane about four times a year. Then the saint that is my mother offered to babysit this weekend so I can drive up to Tulsa and lounge around my friends' houses.
I'm looking forward to it and everything has lightened up.
She also reminded me that respite care* exists just for this reason. So maybe in February I'll take a week and fly to a coast for a while.
So yay!
*The state is very particular about who the kids can stay with overnight. The person has to have various background checks and home visits etc. My mom (bless her) has done all of this. Otherwise, the state provides respite foster care where the kids are placed in another foster home while you have wild hedonistic travels before returning. Or go to funerals, whatever.
I am the most miserable, craptastic person during the off-season for television. I hate it. I NEED television. Emotionally. It's my only downtime activity. Even "running", which is supposedly a de-stresser, isn't for me. I spend the time pacing and cursing in my head. Reading is too involved and I've stopped eating my feelings, which is awesome, but at the same time I don't really know what to do with all my anger. Because I have a lot. Every emotion I have turns to anger. I used to deal also by isolating myself for days and days at a time. Which worked, but I am no longer a hermit. So. I dunno. Right now it's just building and building but hasn't expressed itself other than making me miserable. Here's to not going on a homicidal rampage.
But back to the original topic. Teen Wolf!!!! Is fantastic and everyone should be watching this show.
I have a 16 yr old foster kid right now (seriously, how did this happen) and it's kind of awesome. We dress alike and watch the same TV... It's like being in college again, except I can boss this roommate around and tell them to do the dishes. Life is good. (Excepting the rage issue)
But back to the original topic. Teen Wolf!!!! Is fantastic and everyone should be watching this show.
I have a 16 yr old foster kid right now (seriously, how did this happen) and it's kind of awesome. We dress alike and watch the same TV... It's like being in college again, except I can boss this roommate around and tell them to do the dishes. Life is good. (Excepting the rage issue)
Things I don't talk about
Dec. 17th, 2013 03:35 pmThis is the sort of thing that ends up being a secret because I'm such a contained person. But...I really love my aquarium. A lot.
I have a beautiful 45 gallon tank with 8 White Cloud Minnows and I will soon be adding four catfish. There are also plants.
I have to post this because I am so excited about the tank upgrade...
I have a beautiful 45 gallon tank with 8 White Cloud Minnows and I will soon be adding four catfish. There are also plants.
I have to post this because I am so excited about the tank upgrade...
Hemlock Grove
May. 14th, 2013 01:32 pmSo I started this show due to its shiny cover, but no one was talking about it. Then, BAM. In love. The thing I adore most about this show is that it's not plot driven, it's character driven and that's the storyline I watch. Who cares who dies, but whoa, you did not just do that to Roman. I like this show. I finished it last night. I didn't like the ending. At all. Well, I sort of did. I like how there's a sort of lesson. Everyone is a scorpion. And everyone acts according to their nature.
Or at least that's what I got out of it. I'm sure you got something else, or you hated the show (WHAT?!).
Or at least that's what I got out of it. I'm sure you got something else, or you hated the show (WHAT?!).
#4 100 things: My Mama
May. 17th, 2012 11:48 amAmongst influential people, she ranks at the very top. So much so that it's kind of hard to write this entry. I mean, the woman influenced how I like my eggs, and my hatred of the color red. She's basically been in control of my entire personality.
But anyway. Here's a thank you to the woman that made certain I loved animals (so I couldn't become a serial killer). And caught all the bugs and took them outside (after she gave me a phobia). And made utterly certain I never looked a man in the eyes (in a not-so-subtle attempt to raise a lesbian).
I guess she's also responsible for all the awesome things about me, or at least some of them. :)
I love you mama! Thanks for being good to me.
But anyway. Here's a thank you to the woman that made certain I loved animals (so I couldn't become a serial killer). And caught all the bugs and took them outside (after she gave me a phobia). And made utterly certain I never looked a man in the eyes (in a not-so-subtle attempt to raise a lesbian).
I guess she's also responsible for all the awesome things about me, or at least some of them. :)
I love you mama! Thanks for being good to me.
This is going to get slightly embarrassing, at least I am comforted by the fact that no one is on lj any longer (yay?). It is also long, and sort of therapy.
( How we met and what happened )
I was driving home from another 13 hour work day and as part of my (absolutely beautiful) drive I cross a looong bridge over a lake. I could clearly see a pickup stopped in the center of the far end of the bridge and someone running down the road back towards it, after picking something up off of the road. As I pulled around the truck I watched the man tip a five-gallon bucket out onto the edge of the road and an enormous logger-head snapping turtle scrabbled out into the marsh.
The man had stopped at the end of the bridge, ran to the center, rescued the turtle, then came back to let it go safely.
I loved him intensely. As long as there are people stopping to rescue turtles there's hope for humanity. And no, that's not hyperbole.
The man had stopped at the end of the bridge, ran to the center, rescued the turtle, then came back to let it go safely.
I loved him intensely. As long as there are people stopping to rescue turtles there's hope for humanity. And no, that's not hyperbole.
100 things challenge
Apr. 30th, 2012 04:15 pm100 Places I've Hung My Hat
100 Moments When Ordinary People Changed My/The World
100 Pics of Abandoned Buildings
The idea is to end up with a hundred entries...in some combination. Thanks to

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}
and born_ofsorrow
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100 Moments When Ordinary People Changed My/The World
100 Pics of Abandoned Buildings
The idea is to end up with a hundred entries...in some combination. Thanks to
{Take the 100 Things challenge!}
and born_ofsorrow
(I cannot embed, hotlink, or make the names appear clicky. Despite being here since 2003.)
CISPA is the new SOPA
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Here's their next move: The Cyber Intelligence Sharing and Protection Act, or CISPA, would obliterate any semblance of online privacy in the United States.
And CISPA would provide a victory for content owners who were shell-shocked by the unprecedented outpouring of activism in opposition to SOPA and Internet censorship.
The House of Representatives is planning to take up CISPA later this month. Click here to ask your lawmakers to oppose it.
SOPA was pushed as a remedy to the supposed economic threat of online piracy -- but economic fear-mongering didn't quite do the trick.
So those concerned about copyright are engaging in sleight of hand, appending their legislation to a bill that most Americans will assume is about keeping them safe from bad guys.
This so-called cyber security bill aims to prevent theft of "government information" and "intellectual property" and could let ISPs block your access to websites -- or the whole Internet.
Don't let them push this back-door SOPA. Click here to demand that your lawmakers oppose CISPA.
CISPA also encourages companies to share information about you with the government and other corporations.
That data could then be used for just about anything -- from prosecuting crimes to ad placements.
And perhaps worst of all, CISPA supercedes all other online privacy protections.
Please click here to urge your lawmakers to oppose CISPA when it comes up for a vote this month.
Thanks for fighting for the Internet.
-Demand Progress
And CISPA would provide a victory for content owners who were shell-shocked by the unprecedented outpouring of activism in opposition to SOPA and Internet censorship.
The House of Representatives is planning to take up CISPA later this month. Click here to ask your lawmakers to oppose it.
SOPA was pushed as a remedy to the supposed economic threat of online piracy -- but economic fear-mongering didn't quite do the trick.
So those concerned about copyright are engaging in sleight of hand, appending their legislation to a bill that most Americans will assume is about keeping them safe from bad guys.
This so-called cyber security bill aims to prevent theft of "government information" and "intellectual property" and could let ISPs block your access to websites -- or the whole Internet.
Don't let them push this back-door SOPA. Click here to demand that your lawmakers oppose CISPA.
CISPA also encourages companies to share information about you with the government and other corporations.
That data could then be used for just about anything -- from prosecuting crimes to ad placements.
And perhaps worst of all, CISPA supercedes all other online privacy protections.
Please click here to urge your lawmakers to oppose CISPA when it comes up for a vote this month.
Thanks for fighting for the Internet.
-Demand Progress
And from the silence...meme
Apr. 12th, 2012 03:41 pm1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
Prom? What prom? Not at my high school.
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Love? Maybe, technically, I am currently dating my first love?
3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
No idea. Probably straight 5 dollar vodka...i forget the brand.
4. What was your FIRST job?
Daycare...ew.
5. What was your FIRST car?
A beautiful honda coupe. (I LOVE YOU BABY!)
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
I...don't have a cell phone.
7. Who is the FIRST person you talked to this morning?
The ER nurse.
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher, tell us about them?
Mrs. Robbins. She had orange hair, like a robin. And was mean and racist.
9. Where did you go on your FIRST air plane ride?
...maybe El Paso to visit my aunt. Oh! No! I was two and in a hayfield with a crop duster pilot. I was too little, and didn't understand the world and ran off screaming into the hay field after landing and had to be hunted down and recaptured.
10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Jessie. Yup.
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
?
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
?
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
See what time it is.
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to
?
16. FIRST tattoo?
Don't have one.
17. FIRST piercing?
Ears at 13. Mistake.
18. FIRST foreign country you went to?
Mexico
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
The Lion King or Lost in Space. Don't know which came first.
20. When was your FIRST detention?
Got one, refused to go back to that school and dropped out...Mostly due to detention.
22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Lizbeth
23. If you had ONE wish, what would it be?
Loads of cash. But, I'm pretty happy.
24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
Math.
25. Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for your hand in marriage?
Uh oh.
26. What was the FIRST sport that you were involved in?
Basketball...too tall.
27. What were the FIRST lessons you ever took?
I have no talent for the show.
28. What is the FIRST thing you do when you get home?
Water the chicks.
29. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
No idea.
Prom? What prom? Not at my high school.
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Love? Maybe, technically, I am currently dating my first love?
3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
No idea. Probably straight 5 dollar vodka...i forget the brand.
4. What was your FIRST job?
Daycare...ew.
5. What was your FIRST car?
A beautiful honda coupe. (I LOVE YOU BABY!)
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
I...don't have a cell phone.
7. Who is the FIRST person you talked to this morning?
The ER nurse.
8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher, tell us about them?
Mrs. Robbins. She had orange hair, like a robin. And was mean and racist.
9. Where did you go on your FIRST air plane ride?
...maybe El Paso to visit my aunt. Oh! No! I was two and in a hayfield with a crop duster pilot. I was too little, and didn't understand the world and ran off screaming into the hay field after landing and had to be hunted down and recaptured.
10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Jessie. Yup.
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
?
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
?
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
See what time it is.
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to
?
16. FIRST tattoo?
Don't have one.
17. FIRST piercing?
Ears at 13. Mistake.
18. FIRST foreign country you went to?
Mexico
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
The Lion King or Lost in Space. Don't know which came first.
20. When was your FIRST detention?
Got one, refused to go back to that school and dropped out...Mostly due to detention.
22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Lizbeth
23. If you had ONE wish, what would it be?
Loads of cash. But, I'm pretty happy.
24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
Math.
25. Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for your hand in marriage?
Uh oh.
26. What was the FIRST sport that you were involved in?
Basketball...too tall.
27. What were the FIRST lessons you ever took?
I have no talent for the show.
28. What is the FIRST thing you do when you get home?
Water the chicks.
29. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
No idea.