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[8hyenas]

Today I woke up around 10 AM (way too early), showered, got dressed in the most uncomfortable clothes known to man, and went to a job interview. I went through hell. One and a half hours of hell. I smiled. I laughed. I was miss subservient. I was polite, modest, charming. And the end of the time they said "Well...we don't have any openings." WHAT THE FUCK! You could have told me that over the PHONE. Why are you interviewing if there ARE NOT ANY OPENINGS!?! and it wasn't just me. I waited for the elevator with another very angry person.

After the interview my mom was going to come pick me up and we were going to go out to eat. I was in a pissy mood and just wanted to get something drive through and go home. BUT NO. She insisted that there were fast food places where there were none. Followed by her complaining about how I'm never open to doing anything and she doesn't see why I dislike people so much. To which I replied...

"The first time that I remember being in a restaurant I overheard two guys talking about how they buried this live cat and ran over its head with a lawn mower. Now when ever I'm around people I start thinking "Hmmm...Wonder if she ever killed a bug..." and by the time I'm done thinking I want to kill everyone in the fucking resturant."

To which she responded...

"Do you want to visit a therapist?"

To which I responded...

"NO."

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I'm certain that the minute I see a therapist etc. they're either going to put me on some sort of medicine or check me into a mental hospital. I'd rather die. It's my one horrible fear and I'm never going to "visit" anyone. Ever.

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To which she responded with her usual self-esteem tearing downness...

"I don't know how you think that you can ever go to college in a big city. You're just not going to be able to handle it. You're going to break down and move back to the country and live alone with a cat. You do realize that there are people in the city don't you sweetie?"

Bitch.

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So now I'm at home. With no food. I haven't drunk any water for two days. I'm sick and I'm in a VERY PISSY MOOD.